Dear~~

。。。Dear。。。

。。。我真的怕。。。
。。。我们到底能撑多久。。。
。。。我们的关系能不能长久。。。
。。。可是我真的喜欢你。。。
。。。爱你的。。。
。。。想到这些我真的快哭了。。。
。。。你快把我给逼疯了。。。
。。。狮子座真的和天蝎座不合吗。。。
。。。Dear。。。
。。。我们之间好像总是隔着一层东西。。。
。。。可是我却看不得到。。。
。。。摸不到那到底是什么。。。
。。。我们说过之间不能有秘密的。。。
。。。我相信你没有隐瞒我任何的事情。。。
。。。我也没事情隐瞒你。。。
。。。但是就是会有一些看不到的东西一直存在着。。。
。。。可是它又不出现让我们发现。。。
。。。那到底是什么。。。
。。。Dear。。。
。。。你知道我喜欢抱着你的感觉吗。。。
。。。那是和抱着别人的感觉完全不同的。。。
。。。抱着你感觉很幸福。。。
。。。是别人给不到我的。。。
。。。Dear。。。
。。。你知道我喜欢亲你的感觉吗。。。
。。。那种感觉也是别人给不到我的。。。
。。。是和别人不同的。。。
。。。我真的很喜欢你。。。
。。。很爱你的。。。
。。。你知道吗。。。


。。。I Love You Dear。。。

<<我们的关系>>

嗯...

今天想说一些应该很多人都会遇到的问题...

那就是人与人之间的关系...

人与人之间的关系可以很简单也可以很复杂...

只是看我们怎样对待一个人...

还有看我们选择要怎样对待一个人...

而我..选择了这样对他...

我们的关系有一点复杂...

有时后连我自己也不清楚我门究竟是什么关系...

我们很好..在别人眼中我们像情侣...

可是我们却不是...

我们只是很好很好的朋友...

<<友达以上, 恋人未满>>

他很疼我...

我想要什么他都会尽量帮我做到...

除了我家人...

他是最疼我的人...

有些时候我会觉得他很像我哥...

所以现在我选择用对待哥哥的方式对他...

应该说他是我爸爸吧...

...Daddy...

你应该知道我要的不只是酱的关系吧...

我知道couple也许会出现很多问题...

可是我们都还没试着在一起过...

你怎么知道我们不能...

而且为什么别人可以..偏偏我不行...

这点我很不能理解...

Why you just want to keep friendship???

I know you dont know chinese...

but I only can express my feeling better in mandarin...

so I do not expect you will know what I want to tell you here...

then just let it be simple lah...

emm...

keep our friendship???

but I really dont want we just like this...

dont want we just hang here...

以下的歌词有点类似我的心情...

看了应该可以更了解我吧...

嘻嘻...

我要说的就是这样多了...

你听到了吗???

"你撑着雨伞 接我那次 已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持 爱情本来就 没万无一失
我最幸福的事 当过你的天使 趁鼻酸能掩饰
让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置
是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是 童话故事 再难过其实 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释
那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止
我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
即使分开我们都对彼此诚实
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识
是最幸福的事"

"我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱都在"

Rest In Peace..my friend..

1st November 2009 (Sunday)...
10:15pm...
1st time I lost my friend...
cried whole night...
this time my tears really drop like waterfall...
non-stop...
cant even fall asleep for whole night...
why you??
I just met you on Friday...
Is just 2 days...
then you went away from us...
you talk with me that night...
the last time you chat with me...
the last time we meet each other...
I will never forget you til the end of my life...

Anyway...
James...
Rest In Peace ya...
Hope you have found a nice place there...

Back Kampar~~

Trying to LOVE all liquid foods...
Hope I can do it...
hehe...

D? DD??

should i miss u...
yes...
i really miss u...
miss u like hell...
can someone pull me out...
i don't want sink deeper and deeper...
is f**king tired and exhausting...
haiz...
concentrate..concentrate..concentrate...
LOH POH NI...
think study enough...
he is just an impossible for you...
stop thinking of him...
STUDY!!!!!

**D** **I** **miss** **You**

I said should keep a distance with you..
But failed..

I said should not sink deeper and deeper..
I failed too..

I said should not think of you anymore..
I failed again..

Everything I try to do but FAILED!!!
I hate myself..and YOU get the most..

Did you notice that I'm having crush on you??
Think back what we had done together..

Everything **you done for me..
**you taught me..
**you helped me..

**AND**

Everytime **you talk to me..
**you look at me..
**you smile at me..
**you call my name..

All these like a curse..
They run into my brain..
Control my mind..
I cant even 1 minute do not think of you..
I like your accent..

This trimester going to end soon..
When can we meet again..
When can I hear you to call my name again..
When can you get my message..

All these just for you...
you hear it???

“我真的累了，你在吗？”

累了

~我的肩膀让你靠~

心情不好
~可以想一下我搞笑的样子~

饿了
~我会煮好吃的给你吃~

受委屈了
~我会第一时间给你安慰~

想哭
~我会让你抱着哭~

~有我在，安啦~

~秀秀~

要等到什么时候

这个人才会再次出现

他已经出现了吗

是我没发觉吗

还是他就在我身边....

我不想再去猜测了

你**可以放了我吗

我真的很累了

真的真的**累了....

拜托....

能不能暗示得再清楚一些

或是直接告诉我答案

我不喜欢慢慢地摸索

茫无目的地寻找没有答案的结果

拜托....

告诉我好吗??

我知道没什么可能

但是请告诉我答案

至少现在的我

可以知道要做些什么才好....

可以吗??

还是....

让我当"你"的那个"她"??

哇哈哈!!

**非主流**

**别说你还依然想我**

**我不想听 因为我觉得很怕**

**我怕我忘记不了你**

**我怕我会爱你更深**

**你有了你老婆了**

**你根本没想过我的感受**

**请你别出现在我生命里了**

**你让我觉得 你很可怕**

**我永远都不会忘记你是怎样把我弄哭**

**然后和我说分手的样子**

I Love You

I Love You Daddy..

I Love You too Mammy..

I Love volleyball..but Why "U" hurt me??

My hand get blue black agian...
After play volleyball with chawchin, shiwen, huiling, and other friends..
Cant remember their name well..
The volleyball bruised my hand again..
Last time get hurt was in Foundation..
Quite a long time jor..
Can promise me next time don't hurt me again??
Pleasezzz...

AppLe PhanG??烂苹果??

Wahaha...I told you that I'll show these to others...

Now I realize my promise here.. Sorry Apple..forgive me plzzzz... Wakaka... Lets enjoy the photos below.. I catched it at 意难忘 lok lok stall.. Few weeks ago I think...


1st catch..trying not to look at the camera man(penny)

2nd shot..bad shot..MCC..somemore Apple hiding her cutie face successfully
Haiz..too bad..
Last capture..
walau yeh..used chilli sauce to hide ur face tim..geng!!
烂苹果..不可以生气哦!!
玩玩嘛!!
lolxx..XD..

Oooppss!! Creative??

Show some photos here...

What can u see in this photo??
A face??

How bout this??

This??
Still saw a face??or something else??And this??
Is a lady wearing bikini..wahaha...Ooppsss..I'm wrong...
she is wearing nothing..lolxx..
Geli oh!!!

Just forget it!!
hohoho...

~haPpY bIrthdAy 2 m3~(080809)...Part 1...

..Happy Bufday 2 m3..Happy Bufday 2 m3..

..Happy Bufday 2 m3..Happy Bufday 2 m3..

(08/08/09)..My 19th Birthday..
I'll never forget this day..
Thanks to everyone bless me and celebrate with me..
Love you all so much..muaxxx..

Crazy night
All of us (BA TG5 & TG6) play the bufday cake until 'siao' ady..
Yee Fen was the one started spread the cream on my face..
After that all became 'siao' and keep on spread the cake on each other..
Positively I'll be the most pity victim..haiz..
My face, hair and clothes all kena..
I were smell sweet for whole night as well as after bath..
The fragrance of the cake really strong..
I'd became the Mocha cake for last night..wahaha..

One of my special guest-Bobby(is a dog actually)..
It ate quite a lot cake..
Because all of us let Bobby lick our hand which full of cream..haha..
辛苦你了!!
But we know that Bobby was enjoyed licking our hand..haha..
And thanks Cher Hui pass me the tissue..
Sorry for spread the cream+Bobby's saliva on your face..wakaka..
Most important thing..we dint even taste the cake..no one i think..
Lastly..THANKS All OF YOU!!
Is fully from HEART..Thanks..

(080808)the most happy and touch birthday night..
(080809)the most happy and crazy birthday night..

Now lets show you guys the presents I'd receicved...

Thanks ShareHarn & ShuZhao (1st birthday cake)

1st present..inside all sweet sweet oo..like it!!
p/s:(nana)words written outside a bit not match lor..lolx

Thanks ShareHarn..I'll wear it all the times..

Thanks PohYin SooYin YeeFen..muaxx..
I like Green..yeah..

thanks Sally

Thanks All TG5 & TG6!!muaxx!!
Although I'm not sure who gave this for me still THANKS ya!!

...Anyway..I wont forget the night you all be with me...

Some "geli" photo
Upper part of my body all kena cream jor..geli oh..
done a greatest treatment for my hair and face
oily oily
wahahaha

"Mad by Ne-Yo"

Heard a nice song few days before..

I like this song so much..

Is a song about couple having quarrel..

Both of them chose to silence..

Actually they mad for nothing...

Anyway,I like its rhythm so much...

Quite a nice song..

""Ne Yo-Mad""
She's starin' at me
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Mmmmmm...
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
Ohhh...
And now as I'm yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me
All that that means is neither of us are listening
(and what's even worse)
That we don't even remember why we're fighting.
So both of us are mad for...Nothin' (fighting for) Nothin' (crying for) Nothin' (whooaaa)
But we wont let it go for nothin' (no not for)Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...
I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed (mad at you)
And I don't want you to go to bed (mad at me)
No, I don't wanna go to bed (mad at you)
And I don't want you to go to bed (mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...
And it gets me upset, girl when your constantly accusing.
(askin' questions like you've already known)
We're fighting this war, baby when both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go)
Whoahhhh.....
(what happened to workin' it out?)
We've fall into this place where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down
So what the hell do we do now
It's all for..Nothin' (fighting for) Nothin' (crying for) Nothin' (whooaaa)
But we won't let it go for nothin'...(no not for) Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed (mad at you)
And I don't want you to go to bed (mad at me)
No, I don't wanna go to bed (mad at you)
And I don't want you to go to bed (mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...
Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect (perfect, perfect, ohh ohh)
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight,long as everything's all right between us
Before we go to sleep. Baby, we're gonna be happy
Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)
Girl, I don't wanna go to bed (mad at you)
And I don't want you to go to bed (mad at me)
No, I don't wanna go to bed (mad at you)
And I don't want you to go to bed (mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

"No Dance No Life"

I Love Locking!!!

I Love Hip-Hop!!!

I Love Sexy too!!!

!!!Oh Yeah!!!

Started my dancing life last week..

Like all my instructors so much!!!

All dance very nice and "yeng"...

One of them looks like 卢广仲...wahaha...

His dance also very "geng"...

My surname same with 卢广仲 oh...

Thats why I like him...haha...

Now already 12.55am(Saturday)...

Attend dance class for last 2 days(Thursday and Friday)...

Walau..really enjoy with it...

Me really perspiring non-stop while dancing...

Until it's looks like I'm just finish bathing...

(Thats what my instructor said lah..)

But i think so..lol..

Having Taekwondo Grading today 4.00pm...

and have CBLaw(Chicken Biscuit Law) test on Sunday morning 9.00-10.10am..

KNS lor...have not yet started my revision...damn lor!!

How to sit for the test??

STRESS!!!

Really God Bless Me lor!!!

""Good Luck to me!!!""

When I Saw You...

...When I saw you...

Feel like I'm up in the sky..
Feel like you are mine..
But it is not the real..
Just what I thought..

Heard a good news from someone..
It immediately follow by a bad news too..
Try to make myself busy and busy and more busy..
Wish not to think of you anymore..
Studying,Training,Dancing,Jogging even Sleeping..
Cant even 1 minute do not miss you..
Dreaming also will saw you..

DAMN IT!!!

Are you a ghost??
Why you can follow me everywhere??
Why you cant just disappear from my view??

Miss that moment you chat with me..
Miss that time you look at me..
Miss your smile even when you laugh..
Miss that when you say "Thanks" to me..
I'm yearning all things you done with me..

How about you??

~ Supreme Homesick~

MUMMY..i miss you so much...

...Supreme Homesick...

Last week sister and 2nd brother came back home...
Supreme miss them..especially my Dearest brother..hehe...
Have the FIRST father's day for my Daddy...
Give Daddy a SEIKO watch cost RM350++...
Bring Jie Jie go eat "Din Sum" at ming kok...
wah...quite a lot of people...gia gia...
shared table with a gang of strangers...gang of teenagers...
Mummy bought 12 pieces of Egg Tart...the most nice and delicious and YUMMY egg tart...
and somemore eaten a lots of mangosteens..supreme satisfied...

~~Great Show~~

Wahaha...most important...we attended Apple's drama at PGS's hall...
The "Catherin Tork Charity Night"...quite a best show that i had saw in my life...
but still got a bit blemish lah...bout a girl sang too terrible..OMG..wanna deaf liao...
and somemore changed my prepaid number to postpaid number...
Damn slow geh Digi service...ady wasted half an hour to check my qualification...
Now still have to wait 4 days more only finish progress...
only i can shift to Digi postpaid...wasted my money and time as well...
Haiz..dun mad..here is M'sia...

...SpeechLess...

NaNa...

Dear nana:

"Dont be sad lah...if you sad, i'll sad too..."

Nana..my roommate..her friend was involved in an accident 2 days before..quite a serious accident..hope he will be recovered asap...PRAYING!!!

When i heard this news from her..she look very sad..almost wanna cry out..

She came back from Ipoh Specialist after visited her friend..descibing her friend's situation to me..i can felt that she is 哽咽-ing...

If thats my friend i sure will cry one..but she still can control her tears and din't let them fall down when talking with me..quite a tough girl..at least i feel it at that moment...

Gambateh neh Nana..dont let this bad news affect you and your mood...aza aza fighting!!!

Dont forget that me and share harn and all your friends will always support you gah...wahaha...

Focus more on your study..i think that Ah Yao thinks like this also..he will not like you guys felt too sad with his adversity geh...

So..become as tough as you can...lets all together FIGHTING with Ah Yao ya...

~Aza Aza Fighting~

~Last Day~

Last day work at "Golden Sand"..

It was the most adversity day in my working days..

Double key in quite a number of orders..

The most serious was the order of T83..

Luckily Ah Ling is there..only i can 洗脱冤情..

Lily was very angry with our mistakes..

Haizxxx..i also dont want to become like this gah..

But what can i do??nothing...

Now already 1.50am..Saturday..tonight still wanna go 金沙 eat dinner gah..

Their meals looks very nice..yummy yummy...

Wanna eat laksa, wat tan hor, tom yam bihun..

Drink red bean ice-blended..wuuhuu..exciting..

yeah yeah..tonight setted my dinner at Golden Sand lah..

Finish!!!

Ryan is Back~~~wuuhuu~~~

Hei Hei...he was back...miss him a lot...

yaya...is he...TA12...Ryan Yap...

The one who leave us down and went to Singapore...

11 June 2009...having Economics's lecture class...

Suddenly saw an acquaintance...yaya...is he...Ryan Yap...

Felt excited that moment...haha...

During night 9o'clock...(TA12) having a small gethering...

But it was too bored...

I were just reach the venue not more than 1 hour...

Then the whole x-classmates said wanna go back...

Finally just 5 people, included me, stay back "sembang"...

12am...time i went back 1443...took bath...

Watching "Last Dance"...a Korea movie...quite nice...

Somemore writing my new post...

emm...this was the 1st gathering after my Foundation year...

The 1st night we joined together after Foundation year...

Hope to have another gathering night for TA12...

Cause i miss u guys a lots...

Bernard Ng..Alfred Choo..Javan Goh..Sook Kwen..Lai Lai..

Chaw Chin..Vincent Lim..JY..Yong Yong..Irene Lee..

Janice Lye..Apple Phang..Lizzie Quah..

Wei Peng..Nian Zher..Tiffany Tan..Scaik Yan..Sook Kuan..

Brian Tia..Ryan Yap..Ah Yeow..Seng Keat..Veron Wong..

Chu Yin..&..YYY..

The happiest time in Utar--Stay with all of you..

muaccxxx......

LOVE (non-stop)...

LoVe... means???
Although everyone know that I LOVE You, you just keep silence and do nothing...
Act like you dont ever know i'm being here with you already last for 1 year...
Means that I keep LOVING you for 1 year of time...
But there is no any respond which i'm willing to hear from you...
I dint get any answer yet but already get harm from you...
You make me become crazy until I'm get tired on you...
I'd try my best-est to forget you but FAILED...
Do you ever notice that i'm fall in LOVE with you???
I just cant stop myself thinking of you everytimes, everywhere...
May I ask a question??
"Would you like to stay with me?"
Finally, just to let you know "I'll Always Stay With You"...
Hope it is not too late...
I Love You!!!

MangKaLi 你啊!!!

HANDSOME not means Dai Sai gah!!!
Got someone CHASING u also the same!!!
Not means u can come out with "len si" words!!!
Mangkali 你啊!!!
HATE the guys PROUD!!!
Better go to STICK the wall!!!
DON'T worry..i'll kick u if u r not sucess to STICK by ur own!!!

huuu...."song sai"....

nice to meet U

NICE TO MEET YOU ALL...
new member here...
the reason i create this blog is...
"Today is LabouR DaY!!"...wakaka...
is really boring if just keep on study and do nothing...
hope u guys can enjoy sharing comments v me...
thanks a lot ya....
请多多指教...