pain~~

Can you please STOP SMOKING and STOP being a DRINKER??

Please~~

You want me to beg you??

Think of your mom...

your grandparent...

even your younger brother n also your beloved kei yeh kei ma...

Think of them...

How they going to feel??

How sad will they be??

Do you ever think of this??

21 years old d...

Still don't know way to be mature...

way to think maturely...

way to speak maturely...

Please la...

Do you know how pain my heart is??

Do you know how bad I wish I could cry out loudly??

BUT I can't...

Do you know how suffer n difficult it is when someone you still love the most...

He/She getting depressed...

What he/she did definitely look like he/she is going to GIVE UP in life...

But he/she still denied it all the time...

And you got no idea why he/she do so...

Do you know how pik chik it is???

Sometimes I do really feel like slapping on my own face...

Bang my head to the wall...

just wish that I could stop thinking you for even only one second...

That time i viewed your blog and saw your latest post...

Mentioned there you started to smoke and becoming a drinker...

My heart...really pain like HELL...

What The Fucking Feeling it is...><...

aaarrrrgghhhhHHHHHH!!!!!!

feel like killing myself to stop doing stupid things that relates to you anymore...

CXXX XXK HXXXX

You do really fucking Up my life again n again...

When only can stop it???

Or when I get terminated that time I should actually chose to leave UTAR...

but not stay here anymore...

haiz...

I guess so was my fault again!!!

FUCK!!!

Just want to tell you "I Love You"

‎1、我需要告诉你一个秘密，请看5
...2、答案请看11
3、不要生气，请看15
...……4、冷静，不要生气，请看13
5、首先请看2

6、不要生气，请看12
7、我只想告诉你，NYL 我爱你
8、我想告诉你的是，答案在14
9、请耐心的看4
10、这是我最后一次这样做了，请看7

11、我希望你不要生气当我让你看6
12、抱歉，请看8
13、不要生气，请看10
14、我不知道怎么说，但请看3
15、你一定十分生气，请看9
♥♥♥♥♥

AM I WRONG???

I don't know what you want from me...

Friendship??

Relationship??

Can you please tell me directly??

I give up on guessing it anymore...

I do really hope there is someone that I really can give all my loves to...

and I found...

Its you...

I never regret to be together with you...

won't and never will...

I got no idea why do I avoid you that night...

maybe just like what I told...

I can't sure the relationship between both of us...

and you never tell...

just ask me to give you one day time...

If you really love someone...

Did you still need to think for so long??

This is what I curious for...

and why I avoided everything you try to do to me...

SORRY...

Not to say I don't Love you anymore...

just I don't know which character I need to face you with...

Friend OR Girl Friend??

I'm still confusing why you will come on that night...

Can you please tell me everything that is in your mind???

I do really tiring for guessing it again and again...

PLEASE~~

zombie...

...zombie...

is time to let you go...

I have nothing much to do with you...

what I can do is just let you go...

without regretting...

time to say goodbye...

...sorry that I love You...

and now...

I did hurt myself badly...

my heart broken once again...

why I always hurt myself...

and I seriously don't know why I keep doing this SHIT...

I had bring a lots of trouble to you...

sorry for everything I did and it was affected you...

suddenly dragged in the things...

one thing i knew from this lesson...

everyone is selfish...

no one can deny it...

...NEVER...

自我保护意识太强...

有时反而害了自己...

纸包不住火...

总有一天会烧伤自己...

谎话总有被拆穿的一天...

谁先说谎就是那个人的错...

I hope there is really no more lie in between...

but I don't think everything was settle as what we saw...

I hope is me myself think too much...

...I do...

and I wish everything can go back to the very beginning...

when we don't know each other well...

not strangers but just a normal friends that don't really know deep in each others...

...no secret in between...

...no hurting...

...no lie...

I miss all of YOU~~~

"Dear"...

I miss you...

not love but our friendship...

I do apologized with you for my mistake...

just hope that I can still get your forgiveness...

I just hate the feeling when we meet...

but we cant even say Hi to each other...

and what we need to do is avoid eyes contact with each other...

like a stranger..even worst than when we met a real stranger...

==...

I do really hope can get back our friendship...

"B..."

I start to miss you...

I miss our LOve StOry which was only last for one MOnTh...

although it was short...

I cherish and appreciate every single moment with you...

I love the way we kiss..we hug..we hold our hands..and we...

I love to hear you calling me "bibi"...

its sweeT...^^

I was always like a small kid when I'm with you...

I got no idea why I will became so "sai nai"...

hahaha...^^

I did put on my best effort to grab back you but FAILED...

back in single life less than 3 weeks...

I do feel like trying to get you back all the time...

but every time i saw your status...

you seem like missing another instead of me...

==...

that time I will tell myself really nothing I still can do to you...

I will just let you go...

I swear!!!

Hope you enjoy your life with your best brother...^^

Hope yours brotherhood can last forever and ever...

"zombie"

POhni do really miss you the most all the time...

every time I woke up or before I sleep...

the only thing came into my mind will just only you and always on time...

time that I spent to miss you was like 3 meals a day...

I miss you when eating...

I miss you when walking...

I miss you when bathing...

I miss you when dreaming...[you did came into my dreams for many times..]

I miss you more than I can say...

hope you really understand...

^^...

I didn't meant to force you...

just my guts to fall for you and efforts to catch you is getting lesser...

lastly...just wanna tell you...

I love You...

I will wait for you to come to me one day...

by temporary keeping and hiding my love toward you...

I just want to avoid the probability that I may get hurt from you...

sorry for my selfishness...

I do hope you understand me...

and please don't ever Misunderstand me...

^^...

[真正的爱情]

。。就让我慢慢学习。。

。。在学习悲伤的时候。。

。。学会。。

。。不闭上眼睛。。

。。趁眼泪还没形成之前。。

。。。就在空气中蒸发掉。。。

。。因为失恋不是结束。。

。。而是一个过程。。

。。是一个。。

。。一个完整的爱情故事中。。

。。必经的过程。。

。。。[失恋] 也算是爱情的一部分。。。

。。真正的爱情。。

。。是不管自己付出多少。。

。。也不管对方有没有回报。。

。。基本上是独立存在的。。

。。不管心再怎么痛。。

。。也不会后悔的。。

。。因为。。

。。。[真正] 的爱是不求回报的。。。

放手吧..Let It Go smoothly...^^..SmiLe..

分手后的互相伤害。。

难道要等到双方都伤得不像人形才会懂得收手吗？

放手吧。。

把紧握的双手放开吧。。对谁都好。。

至少不必再互相伤害。。

说到底也是曾经相好。。

曾经相爱过。。

曾经为过对方付出一切。。

永远都付出得那么不计较。。

那么的真心诚意。。

又何必闹得大家都不好过呢？

卢宝妮。。

看开点吧。。

放过他。。

也放过自己。。

美好的未来还在等着你呢。。^^

I HATE YOU Catefyn Oh...U too Dominance Chin Yuk Hoong......

我从来就没试过那么讨厌人...

Catefyn Oh...你是我脾气变好了以后第一个讨厌到极点的八婆...>.<...

抢人家男朋友的第三者..已经够失败了..还要一直不断地做到自己那么的贱..不要脸...

我一生中见过最失败的女人应该就非你莫属了...

爱情中的第三者还要不停的在我面前showoff..lansi..发娇..装可爱..看了就觉得恶心...

还说你们已经原谅我了..放屁..谁稀罕你这件贱货来原谅哦...

扮到自己很伟大那样..还要一副可怜我的样子和语气..把男朋友让给我去约..>.<...

Diu~~你以为自己真的那么高贵啊..伪装得好而已..最看不起你这种人了..假到爆...

告诉你吧..你这种人就是那种女生看了会超讨厌..男生会把你当宝的贱货...

有事没事都去乱认别人做哥哥做姐姐的..你不觉得和哥哥在一起像在乱伦的咩...

还告诉我说你只是想帮我和你男友和好..没有破坏的意思...

BullShit~~当你第一天出现就已经破坏了所有东西...

破坏了..我原本幸福的爱情故事..我最爱的跳舞..我最爱的舞伴...

因为你的出现..抢了我的男友..搞到我和他认识的朋友..都讨厌他了..你很开心啦这样...

自从你的出现..他抛弃了我以后..我已经听太多身边的朋友一直在说他的坏话...

如果你爱他..给你听到那些对你爱的人负面的话..你会怎样...

我还依然要忍痛割爱..还要接受别人讨厌我爱的人..还要是因为你这种贱人...

现在还要因为你一直在惹我..我脾气冲..失控...

连我最爱的他都因为现在你是他女朋友..把我这个曾经很要好的朋友当透明了...

甚至提出和我绝交..现在你可高兴得很啦..如你所愿了..他因为你而讨厌我了...

把你当宝却把我当草了...

算了..反正抢得走的爱人都不算是爱人...

只是我生命中的一个过客..也许应该说只是一个不小心路过的陌生人...

我知道他现在很讨厌我..不想看到我..放心..我很乖的..我会配合...

既然他不愿意见到我了..他不想认识我了..我就也当不认识他好了...

反正我也不想自己认识过你...

我喜欢我以前认识的他..而不是现在为了一段虚伪的爱情而盲目的笨蛋...

我喜欢一刚开始认识的干妹妹..而不是现在待人虚假的贱货...

放心..我会消失在你们的世界..因为太虚伪的世界不太适合我...

我做人比较真诚..爽不爽你我都不会隐瞒...

如果你承受不了..麻烦你弹我远远..我也不想你靠我太近..抱歉!!!

如果你们真的很不爽我..没关系..我很大方..我会让你们尽情的不爽...

如果你们不爽到想要潘我..我可以让你们潘..我绝不还手...

不过要你们记得..打了第一巴..我给你时间愣一愣..想一想...

如果真的那么讨厌我到了极点..我另一边脸也让你打...

那时我就会知道该怎么做了..我会谢谢你们让我尝试到了被打巴掌的感觉...

我会很感激你们曾经出现我的人生..让它不再那么闷了...

谢谢你们对我的残忍...^^

陈奕宏..既然你那么爱她..那你就尽情地抱着她过世吧..^^

Promise**

TO-DO LIST:

1)cant cry

2)cant angry

3)cant eat too much

4)cant sleep late

5)cant be lazy

6)must eat medicine and listen doctor's instruction

7)must listen what my family said

8)must listen what my dear said

9)must study hard

10)must graduated smoothly

so far these are my to-do list...

promise must done it well...

cant miss up any point I had stated here...

If not everyone will leave me away...

SIGN**

Dear~~

。。。Dear。。。

。。。我真的怕。。。
。。。我们到底能撑多久。。。
。。。我们的关系能不能长久。。。
。。。可是我真的喜欢你。。。
。。。爱你的。。。
。。。想到这些我真的快哭了。。。
。。。你快把我给逼疯了。。。
。。。狮子座真的和天蝎座不合吗。。。
。。。Dear。。。
。。。我们之间好像总是隔着一层东西。。。
。。。可是我却看不得到。。。
。。。摸不到那到底是什么。。。
。。。我们说过之间不能有秘密的。。。
。。。我相信你没有隐瞒我任何的事情。。。
。。。我也没事情隐瞒你。。。
。。。但是就是会有一些看不到的东西一直存在着。。。
。。。可是它又不出现让我们发现。。。
。。。那到底是什么。。。
。。。Dear。。。
。。。你知道我喜欢抱着你的感觉吗。。。
。。。那是和抱着别人的感觉完全不同的。。。
。。。抱着你感觉很幸福。。。
。。。是别人给不到我的。。。
。。。Dear。。。
。。。你知道我喜欢亲你的感觉吗。。。
。。。那种感觉也是别人给不到我的。。。
。。。是和别人不同的。。。
。。。我真的很喜欢你。。。
。。。很爱你的。。。
。。。你知道吗。。。


。。。I Love You Dear。。。